Hate is a strong word

The choice has been made. And all I can do is go follow along. I'm so torn. I've got loads of emotions on the line and I don't like where I am now.  I don't like where I am now but I am somehwat forced to and forcing myself to persevere because it might be good for my future. I feel that I'm a kid now stomping my feet on the ground over and over again, upset with what I'm getting. I wonder what one week from now will get me to. Things are so repulsive. 

Everyone has been encouraging, thank you. I'm so grateful that I've got all of you to care and help me out. I take in all your advice and I do listen about everything.. 

I hope, wish and pray I don't breakdown tomorrow.